Let's skip to the point: All in all, God provides. He provides for us physically, spiritually, and financially. He provides for us through strangers, friends, coworkers, and family. He provides the type, the amount, and the thing that He knows is right for us at that point in time. Is it always what we want? Is it always what we think we need? I don't think so. However, when we are so in tune with God, when we are so wrapped up in His Word, when we are on the same page with Him, our hearts, our desires, our whole entire being starts to be transformed to be more like His. This is when you are given the 'desires of your heart'. Only when you 'delight yourself in the Lord' will He grant you those desires. This is because our heart is set on what He wants for us. If you ask me, there is no wrong desire coming from your heart as long your desires are fully set on the Lord's.
That is the challenge though, isn't it? It is easier said than done. When we are having rough patches in life, we need to remember to stay in tune with the Lord so we can do what we need to do and hear from Him what we need to hear.
Wednesday, January 9, 2013
Austin at 3 Months Old
I'm going to be down-right honest here-I am blessed beyond belief! I'm sure others have heard this, as did I, but the love for your baby is incredible and like no other love you have experienced before. People told me how awesome and magical it would be to be married to my best friend, and I love Stephen to death but (don't get me wrong) it's a different kind of 'magic' than marriage. Yes, it's great having my best friend be my bosom buddy and strong male figure, but there is still something different from experiencing the magic of marriage to the magic of having a baby.
At first (the first 2 weeks), being a momma was hard. I did not sleep longer than 3 hours at a time which made me exhausted and physically tired all the time. My recovery from delivery hurt SO bad! It felt like I got run over by a train. ---> Before I wrote that last sentence, I had written a great analogy on how my body felt, but Stephen read it and informed me that it was too much info for the internet and he made me erase it. You can thank him for that, I suppose. Well, besides no sleep and a train-wrecked body, I was nursing. I will leave out the explicit details of the pain of that as well. If you have questions ladies, just ask me privately and I will inform you. You'll probably want to know what to expect before you pop out a little bundle of joy too :)
All of these things made it so hard for me to get to know Austin in that time. My family kept telling me, 'It'll get better' but better seemed to be months away. I was so worn down physically and mentally. Around 3-4 weeks, things were just about back to normal for me physically, and I could finally stop fighting with those pains and instead put all my thoughts into getting to know my little sweetheart. The one thing though that kept me enthralled with Austin was the fact that God created him inside of me, practically out of nothing. It blew my mind. No one can explain to you the feeling you get when you think about that...maybe I explained that wrong. It's not quite a feeling, but a constant brain-buster as you try to wrap your mind around the fact that a human being was made while inside of your body. Miraculous.
Well, as time has progressed, Austin has become my new bosom buddy, literally. But seriously, the two of us are like buds. We hang out for hours each day and I love that I know him so well and can tell what he needs or wants at any time. I love the fact that he calms down when he sees my face and when I hold him. I love that he grins at me when I wake him up. I cover him in kisses all the time and have so many gushy names for him that will one day be embarrassing and I will no longer be allowed to call him. As of today, he is 3 months and 3 weeks old. He'll turn 4 months old two days after Christmas!
Today, we bought him 3 Christmas presents. 1) a bumbo seat and tray, 2) a red bow tie, and 3) red suspenders. He will of course not really love any of those, but I don't think he's quite at the age where he will 'enjoy' gifts anyway.
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| 3 weeks old. At this point, he still had loose skin and had not filled out yet. |
At first (the first 2 weeks), being a momma was hard. I did not sleep longer than 3 hours at a time which made me exhausted and physically tired all the time. My recovery from delivery hurt SO bad! It felt like I got run over by a train. ---> Before I wrote that last sentence, I had written a great analogy on how my body felt, but Stephen read it and informed me that it was too much info for the internet and he made me erase it. You can thank him for that, I suppose. Well, besides no sleep and a train-wrecked body, I was nursing. I will leave out the explicit details of the pain of that as well. If you have questions ladies, just ask me privately and I will inform you. You'll probably want to know what to expect before you pop out a little bundle of joy too :)
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| 6 weeks old. He IS a bundle of joy :) |
All of these things made it so hard for me to get to know Austin in that time. My family kept telling me, 'It'll get better' but better seemed to be months away. I was so worn down physically and mentally. Around 3-4 weeks, things were just about back to normal for me physically, and I could finally stop fighting with those pains and instead put all my thoughts into getting to know my little sweetheart. The one thing though that kept me enthralled with Austin was the fact that God created him inside of me, practically out of nothing. It blew my mind. No one can explain to you the feeling you get when you think about that...maybe I explained that wrong. It's not quite a feeling, but a constant brain-buster as you try to wrap your mind around the fact that a human being was made while inside of your body. Miraculous.
Well, as time has progressed, Austin has become my new bosom buddy, literally. But seriously, the two of us are like buds. We hang out for hours each day and I love that I know him so well and can tell what he needs or wants at any time. I love the fact that he calms down when he sees my face and when I hold him. I love that he grins at me when I wake him up. I cover him in kisses all the time and have so many gushy names for him that will one day be embarrassing and I will no longer be allowed to call him. As of today, he is 3 months and 3 weeks old. He'll turn 4 months old two days after Christmas!
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| 3 months! (13 weeks) He has filled out! |
Today, we bought him 3 Christmas presents. 1) a bumbo seat and tray, 2) a red bow tie, and 3) red suspenders. He will of course not really love any of those, but I don't think he's quite at the age where he will 'enjoy' gifts anyway.
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| Posing with the gingerbread house that he great aunt Lynn made him for his 1st Christmas! |
An End of a Semester...
Well, besides me being a new mom, I'm not much different than the old Katie. My classmates this past semester were funny because they said I'm the wisest seeing that I'm now a mom. I beg to differ, and I did whenever they said that. I just laughed a little because I knew they were joking. I tried to just have fun in my activity class especially because I wanted people to know I'm still a 23 year old who is in college just as they are and that we really aren't that different. I just wanted to have some fun like the rest of them, you know? I love Austin and wouldn't trade him for anything but that doesn't mean that I'm now some washed up old woman!
You know, in the past I have always heard people say that everyone they know is getting married or having babies. Yes, everyone I know seems to be getting married and having babies now. I can think of 7 people I know who are expecting and 7 people who are engaged to be married. I guess I've reached that point in life where I can say that too. It is so strange. It seems that just yesterday I was a sophomore in college-boyfriendless, babyless, and free to do whatever I wanted whenever I wanted to do it. Time sure does fly...
I managed to get away with A's and B's this past semester. But then again, I did only have 9 credits so it wasn't really that bad. This semester, I graduate. Well, as long as I pass my classes. I still need to get signed into 3 classes and I only have 2 days to do that before the semester starts on Monday! Ah!! But, I'm working hard on it and I have faith that God has some wise plan about it all. Trying to find my teachers while caring for a 4 1/2 month old is more difficult than finding a needle in a haystack!
Austin has become quite the chatterbox now and he loves playing with his feet. I hope and pray for him each day that he will continue to stay healthy and that we can be great parents for him pointing him a direction that leads him to following Christ.
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